Today I discovered Alyson Tartary on a podcast, and the mix of admiration and ache she triggered in me felt like truth trying to rise. This letter is my vulnerable exploration of envy as guidance — not something to hide, but something to follow. It’s the beginning of understanding how a lifetime of Good Girl conditioning gives way to sovereignty, clarity, and finally trusting the woman I’m becoming.

In The Sound of Becoming, writer and sensualist Charlotte Petit Noble reflects on the contradictions of motherhood — the noise and the stillness, the miracle and the madness. Through cinematic prose and quiet observation, she explores what it means to stay connected to the feminine self while nurturing others. Each paragraph unfolds like a scene: the warmth of water, the glow of candlelight, the hum of life between chaos and calm. A story for women seeking presence, sensuality, and meaning in the ordinary rhythms of family and identity.

There are days when I feel like the worst mom — there but not really here. My phone, my thoughts, my endless to-dos keep stealing the moments I’ll one day ache to remember. This letter is my way back to presence, to stillness, to the version of me my kids already love.

Beginnings have always been loud for me — bright, electric, impossible to ignore. Urgent even. They rush in, fill my mind and body with light, and make everything feel urgent and alive.